If it were up to me I would kill and eat the people I hated and or disliked.

the next few entries have been written ages ago and just haven't been submitted.  with that said . . . enjoy.

3/26/08

So yesterday I went to the renaissance fair and it was really fun but here's what happen when I had been there for about 5 hours or so and decided that I was safe to buy somethings that were there.  my boss calls me up and tells me that he doesn't need me for the next week and for me not to come in.  this means I'm out 170.00$ this week, money that I had plans for.  at this point I had just purchased a sword from the pirate ship in the middle of the fair.  this kind of puts a damper on things.  I had bought my mom a birthday present, the transformers movie (Before you say anything, she loved that movie).  So when I walk in my dad's first word to me aren't hey how was it, or hey why the long face, or something nice and fatherly it's "You bought another sword?"  he then proceeds to ask me a whole bunch of other questions that have nothing to do about the renaissance fair or my day or his just how I splurge my money and don't think about the future and why didn't I have any money for him and or my mother.  I get pissed after he tries to say that I spent more money on myself than on my mother as if i did it on purpose as if I analyzed and said "eh, you know what she's got other birthdays coming up . . . she'll live, I'll get the sword and call it even." 

Now I told you that story so I could tell you this vow/promise/declaration.  I hope everyone reads this and bears witness to this declaration.  I VOW NEVER TO BUY MYSELF ANYTHING BUT EVERY 10 PAYCHECKS, IF THE 10TH PAYCHECK FALLS ON A BIRTHDAY,CHRISTMAS OR ANY OTHER HOLIDAY THAT REQUIRES ME TO GIVE GIFTS I WILL WAIT ANOTHER 10 PAYCHECKS BEFORE I DO SO.  THIS  INCLUDES PURCHASES BIG (50$ AND ^) AND SMALL (49$ AND BELOW).  THAT IS MY PROMISE.  So if you know me I want you to point out this blog to friends that are ours have them approach me and ask me if I've done anything for my self today and if and when I respond simply "No." I want you to say "Good for you!" and be on your merry way.

With that said I hate myself and am also slightly confused as to how others can like one as selfish as me.  This decree is final there is no way to change or alter it this includes making me buy things for you and then giving them to me afterwards.

SO everybody,

                Have you ever thought you were in the clear and then somebody ask something of you and you say 'no' and then they hold it against you and then don't let you do whatever it was that they approved previously? well my parents do that sometimes and they're doing it again and I can feel it. They gave me an option . . . to babysit one of my cousin that I don't like too tough and then they try to place the fact I'm short with them and don't do this with them and such, which is true because they don't listen to me when I tell them to do little things so I don't give them an inch and my parents hate the fact that I'm not forgiving for certain things but apparently I'm supposed to like all of my family, you know regaurdless of what they've broken of mine (rules and items alike.). I'm not like them and when I say things and mean them not many people are like me when it comes to promisies and such. They made a bathroom downstairs and I told them I wasn't going to use and they didn't believe me and I didn't for about 2 years and then in the 9 1/2 years that bathroom has been in this house I've used 7 times and every time I've been forced to or paid to. So when I told the little ones that I wasn't going to let them back in my room again for not listening to me and then I didn't, so they got mad.  The ability to mean what you say, to even family, and hold fast to your word seems to be a foreign prospect to my parents.  Now, back to the subject at hand.  The fact of the matter is that my parents have roped me into baby sitting this younger cousin of mine and the condition I know but They didn't want to tell me is that if I don't do this I don't to spend my anniversary weekend with my lady . . .  grr.  I wonder if I'm going to get paid for this.

Hey everyone,

                 Just checking in and saying hey.  Life is going ok . . . I guess.  I mean nothing major is going wrong, in fact nothing is going wrong.  The only thing that's not going according to plan is me getting a job, and even then I've applied at 3 different places so far and now I'm just waiting for a call back and hopefully something will come through.  Still there seems to be something throwing me off.  It's kind of annoying.  but then again maybe it could be that the job I wanted I wasn't smart enough for and the others that I want aren't showing any interest not unlike some people in my life.  My so called friends say that there are going to call me or get some one to call me and they never do it's some what depressing.  the only person I can count on to talk/call me in anyway shape or form is her (you know who you are).  ok well I'm done bitching mow I'm just waiting by the phone . . . anytime now . . . bye.  Oh yeah did anyone else not buy gas day before yesterday?

Yo everyone,

                   Guess what today is no gas day or yesterday I should say.  So how many of you knew that and how many of you actually didn't buy gas?  Just wondering if anybody in the world beside myself and my mom and my girlfriend and her parents didn't buy gas today go ahead and reply to this but for somne odd reason I have a feeling like a lot of my other blogs and such no one is going to reply.  but maybe in light of recent events so one will respond due to the fact it's about gas.  Here's hoping!!!